Hello People! How Is Everyone Doing In This Great Month Of October, One Of My Favorite Months Of The Year! I Mean Come On Now, There Are Birthdays, Some Kids Have Home Coming Others Have Sweetest day. And Then There Is The Best Two Days Of The Year Where You Can Either Be A Devil Or An Angel On The 30th And You Can Dress As You Will And Pretend To Be Something Else For A Night And Tell Make People Choose Between Giving You A Treat Or Giving Them A Trick Lol. All Hollows Eve Is My Favorite Day Of The Year Lol.
Anyways Thats All Beside My Point....
A Lot Been Going Great For Me, I Still Am Having Court Problems But Nothing That Has Catched Up On Me Yet Which is A Great Thing. Im Passing All My Classes in School. Gots A+ On The Brain! And On My Progress Reports Lol. Ummm....Not Swetheart But Then Again Not Really Looking For A Guy At All Right Now. I Kinda Just Gave Up All Together On Relationships. I Dont See No Point In Callin Someone Your "signifigant Other" When Really The "Other" Just Come And Go So Whos To Say really Love Exists Anymore? I Mean Love Is More Of A New Term Now Used To Express What ou Feel At The Moment But Then In The end You End Up Hating The Shit Out Of Your "Significant" Other And To Me Its All Bullshit Now. And All Really Really Pointless.
As of The Last Few Weeks I Have Actually Not Been Home. Not Saying Where Ive Been Cuz Its A Secreat But I Had Fun Really. It Was Relaxing And I Was Still Able To Save Soooo Much Money On Gas Not Having To Drive From My House All The Way Out To Rochester. Which Is Great. My Parents Missed Me, I Wish I Could Say The Same But I Cant Really....Feel Kinda Bad For That Sad Fact But Damn People I Need A Fuckin Break From The Bullshit And Fakness. Its Giving Me A Fuckin Headache And Really Making Me What To Pull Some Dumb Shit Like Forreals.
Ive Been Making A Lot Of Friends Latly And Gotten In Touch With some Old Friends As Well, Just Trying To Find And Figure Out Who I Was Back In The Day And Who I Am Now. I Do Feel More Confident Now. I Can Say That Much At Least. People At School Respect Me Cuz Even Though I Have Not Mentioned Anything About My Life At Home But Hell You Can Just Look At My Car And Now Behind My "I Dont Give A Fuck" Attitude, There Is Shit Bothering Me Yet Im Still Being Me And Not Letting Anything Get To Me And Somehow Able to Still Keep A Smile On My Face. But Hey Like I Said. I Try And No I Dont Give A Fuck Really, Whats The Point In Caring Anyways. Shit Happends, Thats Is Really. Nothing We Can Do About It Really Besides Suck It Up And Deal With It As It Comes. Which Is What Ive Been Doing And I Feel Great About It Because For Once Shit Is Finally Going Some What My Way And Im Happy With How Things Are.
I Dont Have No One Breathing Down My Neck Anymore, No One To Tell Me What I Can And Cant Do, Not Having To Worry About How I Look, Act Anything. And When The Time Does Come For Me To Find Someone New To Introduce In This Fucked Up Life I Have, Ima Have To Make Sure They Knwo Who The Fuck I Am And What My Life Is Like And Make Sure They Can Deal With Shit The Way It Is Before I Can Even Consider To Be With That Person. I Am Not Fuckin Around Anymore, Im Dont With Drama In My family, The Bullshit, Having Someone Act As If They Can Run All Over Me. Fuck That Shit!!! I Rather Beat A Nigga's Ass Before I Let Someone Ever Again Tell Me How To Live My Fuckin Life.
But Like I Said Everything Is Going Fan Fuckin Tastic For Me Right Now And Im Hoping it Gets Better For The Most Part. I Finish School Nov 5th. If I Throw A Party Ima Hit Everyone Up When I Get My Diploma In My Hand And Say Fuck Everyone Who Said I Wasnt Gonna Finish School. Yea I Know Some Poeple Out There Think I Am Like My Family But I Aint And Ima Prove That Shit Here Soon. Hopfully I Can Find A Job Here Soon As Fuck To So I Can get Out Of This Bitch. I Cant Wait To Be On My Own And Not dealing With Being Everyones Servent For Ever And A Life Time. People Need To Get On That Grind And Get Their Shit Together Because i Aint Waiting Around Forever, When I Get A Chance Im Out End Of Story. And I Aint Waiting For Anyone On My Way Out The Door.
Well Ima Head To Bed, Goodnight People!!
Listening to: I Will Not Bow-Breaking Benjamin
Reading: A Dozen Black Roses
Drinking: Rip Its